your most important opportunity

The sound of the thunderous rain is holding me back.

There’s no need to look out the window, the lightning is shining through. 

One hesitant peep out the window and all I see are gray clouds. 

No way I can risk waiting for perfect conditions. 

This is the woman who raised me. 

Who lifted me out of my darkest conditions. 

I have to give her this moment. 

I have to give myself this moment.

I’m drenched in rain, my hair frizzing.

I’m wet and cold, a recipe for more disaster. 

But this moment is too important for me to wait and see if anything changes. 

I remember back at the hospital, tears running down my face, emotions racing through my body..

The moment I most needed a moment..

“Will you be donating your Aunt’s organs?” 

It felt like such an inconvenient time. 

Kinda like right now. 

But if it’s important enough you’ll go. 

If it’s important enough you’ll give. 

The clouds are gray, there’s thunder, and lightning.

The conditions are not perfect.

And that is why you are most needed, right now. 

It’s wet. It’s cold.

But you need to go. 

You need to give. 

Unless..

you want to wait for perfect conditions, and see if anything changes.