My Shoe Size Remains But My Heart Has Changed

Be careful what you pray for. 

It might just come to pass. 

That’s what my Aunt used to say. 

One of my biggest prayers since the launch of Giving is Like has been that God will help me become a better giver. 

No way am I ever going to fulfill my dream of helping people become better givers if I’m not becoming one myself. 

Be careful what you pray for. 

It might just come to pass. 

That’s what my Aunt used to say. 

I’ve worn the same shoe size since the 8th grade. 

In fact, in the next room from where I am writing this, is a pair of sneakers I purchased in the 8th grade. 

Since that time, I have accumulated hundreds of sneakers. 

I remember one Saturday driving down to the Bape store (my favorite brand at the time) and leaving with over ten pairs of sneakers. 

I remember the days of going to Nike Town almost every Saturday and purchasing the latest pair of Jordans. 

My days of Bapes and Jordans are long gone, but I never stopped buying sneakers. 

If you take a look at my sneaker collection right now, you’d see predominantly one brand. 

My shoe size remains. 

But then I prayed this prayer: 

“God help me become a better giver.” 

And now my heart has changed. 

I’ve purchased one pair of footwear since the new year began. 

If you’ve never seen a miracle in person, this is pretty close. 

Week by week I watch my favorite sneaker brand release new sneakers.

My heart remains changed. 

I’ve been tempted a few times, I even tried to tell myself a few stories to convince myself it was ok. 

“Just these” or “Just this one last time”. 

But my heart remains changed. 

It’s my fault. 

I prayed for this. 

And now it has come to pass. 

It started with a prayer. 

And then a book. 

And I heard clear in my heart: 

“If you want to become a better giver, start giving to better things”. 

When I first prayed this prayer I was thinking God would help me become a better giver by helping me give more. 

Who knew giving less would actually do the trick. 

Less to companies who don’t pay livable wages. 

Less to companies who could care less about the impact their products have on our planet. 

Less to companies who knowingly allow their employees to work in unhealthy environments. 

Giving less, less, less. 

So I could give better, better, better. 

My shoe size remains, but my heart has changed. 

Be careful what you read, it might just come to pass.